Did I do this psychologically?

Obviously he has something or somethings the other one has that you probably don't. This may sound strange, but it changed my whole life. That is, listen to your intuition. You will find that you have all the wisdom, love and compion inside, that you will ever need, although the mind always needs information, but your intuition will tell you where to find the information it needs. Why say more. If you don't check that out then more wont do much good.